B squeezes
himself into the far corner of the back seat, his arms tightly around his
torso, hugging himself. He wishes he could disappear, from the world, from
himself, but mostly from the other four in the car.
Atul stamps on the accelerator, swinging
the wheel as hard as he can. The off side tyres mount the edge of the pavement
before coming back down on the street hard enough to rattle them around like
dice in a box, but nobody notices; they’re too busy shouting.
“What the hell did you do that for?” Rudal’s
face is all mouth and eyes as he screams at Sundeep. “Why did you shoot that
cop?”
Sundeep glances at him and back at the rust-coloured
pistol in his hands. He’s broken the barrel open, slid the spent cartridge out,
and loads another one into the breech. A wisp of smoke rises from the barrel
like a waking snake, and is instantly whisked away. “It was him or us,” he
snaps. “What else should I have done? Given up?”
“Look,” Pradeep yells, pointing at a man on
the pavement holding up a mobile phone. “That bastard’s trying to take photos.”
Sundeep leans across him, sticks the barrel of the gun through the window, and
fires. There’s a deafening blast and the man falls to the ground, kicking
spasmodically, a pool of blood already forming around him. The mobile phone is
an oblong of shattered plastic on the street.
“That’s taken care of him,” Sundeep says
with satisfaction. He stuffs another of the thick brass cartridges into the
pistol. “Anyone else?”
“When you asked me to get that katta for you,” Rudal screams, “I never
thought you were going to do a robbery with it.”
“So what did you think I’d do with it – defend myself?” Sundeep shouts back.
“If I’d wanted a gun to defend myself with I’d have applied for a firearms
licence and bought a proper revolver, you idiot.”
Atul glances back over his shoulder long
enough to snarl at them. “Didn’t it occur to any of you that the cops will be
after us now?”
“It was him or us,” Sundeep repeats. He
lifts up the sack of money to show them. “We got this anyway.”
Pradeep glares at him. “What did you have
to rob for?”
“I didn’t see you holding back when I told
you to take the money,” Sundeep says. “Any
of the three of you. And you won’t hold back when it comes to taking your share
either, I’ll bet.”
“That doesn’t make a damn difference,” Rudal
says. “If I’d known you were planning a robbery...”
“...you wouldn’t have bought the katta for me,” Sundeep finishes. “As
though I don’t know that you made a nice profit on it, and on the bullets. And
as though just anyone knows where one can buy illegal homemade guns. Right?” He
pauses to see if anyone will answer. “Just like this car,” he continues. “It’s
stolen goods, which is why it was cheap. The dealer Atul bought it from is
crooked, as we all know.” His mouth
twists viciously. “Don’t you get it? All of you are crooks, it’s just that you
aren’t ready to admit it to yourselves. Well, I am.”
“We aren’t crooks,” Pradeep says. His
sparse moustache doesn’t quite cover the scar on his upper lip, and it’s livid against
his pale skin. “We’re college students, and you’re one too.”
“Yeah, right, college students,” Sundeep
laughs shortly. “Do you think a college degree’s going to get you a job, huh?
Shall I tell you what’s going to happen when you go with your degree to a job
interview? Shall I?” He points a thick finger at Pradeep. “Some stuck-up bitch
with a fancy upper class school accent’s going to waggle her tits in the
interviewer’s face and then it’s thanks for coming in, better luck next time,
for you. Well, I’m not planning to
spend my life selling ice cream or listening to abuse from fat foreign sluts at
a call centre. I want to live.”
“We
aren’t going to live unless we get somewhere safe,” Atul says. They’re headed
into the old part of town, narrow streets with straggling houses, but beyond
them the land rises into the forested hills. “They must be after us by now.”
B stirs at last, forcing his clenched fists
to relax, letting his arms drop away from his torso. “All I wanted was a lift,”
he says. “Why didn’t any of you tell me anything about this?”
Pradeep glances at him as though surprised
he exists. “About what?”
“This...gun,” B says. “This car. This
robbery. All of you knew something or other was going on, but none of you told
me anything. And all I wanted was a lift.”
Nobody speaks for a minute or two. They’re
in a lane so narrow that Atul has to slow almost to a stop to let a car coming
from the other side pass. Sundeep sticks the gun under the seat.
“Where are we going?” Rudal asks when
they’re past the lane and out on a more open street. “Do you have any idea?”
“I have a relative near here,” Atul says.
“He can put us up for a bit.”
“No,” B says. “No,” he repeats, more
loudly, to make sure they’ve heard. “The police will find us there.” He looks
around at them. “They’re probably after us right now. They know exactly where
we are.”
“Take it easy,” Rudal says. “Relax.”
“What do you mean, take it easy?” B snaps.
He feels a rising tide of paranoia. “That car,” he says. “The one that passed
us just now. It couldn’t have put a tracker on us, could it? A radio tracker,
like the ones on TV?”
“You’re
crazy,” Rudal says. “Totally bloody insane.”
“No, but he’s right,” Pradeep bites his
scarred lip. “They’ll track us down here for sure. There are too many eyes and
ears around, and someone must have got the car number.”
“That’s right,” Sundeep agrees. “We need to
hide the car.” He looks at Atul. “You can always get the dealer to come out and
fit new number plates. It’ll be all right then.”
Atul turns the car on to a narrow dusty
street between a row of houses and fields. On the other side the road goes up
into the hills. “Can you see any police?” he asks, as the ground below them
begins to rise and the houses fall away behind.
“If they’re tracking us,” B says, “they
won’t be chasing us. They’ll set up roadblocks and wait for us to walk right
into the trap.”
They all look at him and uneasily at one
another. “We’d better dump the car,” Rudal says.
Atul swings the wheel over and the car
bumps into the scrub at the side of the road. “Damn you all to hell,” he says.
“It was a good car.”
“It can’t be traced to you, can it?” Sundeep
asks him. “So what are you worried about?”
“I know this area,” Pradeep says. “There’s
a restaurant up the hill a little bit. It’ll be crowded in the evening. We can
mix with the people there and nobody will find us.”
Sundeep begins to stuff the gun down the
small of his back. Rudal stares at him. “Haven’t you done enough damage? Leave
the damn thing here somewhere – and wipe it down first.”
Amazingly, Sundeep obeys, wiping the gun on
his handkerchief before flinging it into the forest as far as he can. They push
through the scrub up the slope. B walks behind the others, his eyes fixed on
the ground at their feet. He’s wishing he hadn’t asked for the lift earlier.
How could things have gone so wrong?
Momentarily, the policeman’s body flashes
in his mind, blood spurting from the bullet hole in its throat. Sundeep’s crude
pistol had nearly shot the man’s head off. He swallows hard. What will the police do if they catch them?
His mind boggles at the thought.
They come out near a small marketplace,
incongruously strung along both sides of the road in the middle of the scrub
forest. A couple of long distance lorries are parked nearby, the drivers
leaning against the side of one, talking, and B has a sudden intense desire to
go to them and ask for a lift out of there, away from the city and never to
come back. But where could he go, and what could he do with no money and
nothing but the clothes on his back?
The restaurant is a large and rambling
place, a series of long shed-like huts with thatched roofs and walls made of
bamboo posts and cane mats. From outside it looks bucolic, like something from
a hundred years ago. Inside, of course, it’s as modern as they come.
“Spread out,” Pradeep hisses over his
shoulder. “Mix among the customers. Don’t stick together and show everybody how
scared you are, damn it.”
“How long do we stay here?” Atul asks.
“Until the crowd begins to leave, of
course. Then we slip away with them. Nobody will know who we are.”
“How do you
know so much about how to behave while hiding out from the cops?” B wants
to ask, but there are people around now, and, besides, Pradeep is already
walking away towards one of the huts.
B selects one of the largest huts, a round
one with a conical roof that reminds him of a circus tent. It’s in the middle
of the restaurant, with music playing inside. It’s dark and cool, and when he
enters he has to pause a little o allow his eyes to adjust.
He hears his name called, in a familiar
nasal voice. It’s Haleel, from the college, his thin face and spatulate ears
waggling. “Hey, man,” he calls. “How come you’re here?”
“I could ask the same about you.” B walks
over. Haleel is with Vipul, and there are a couple of open bottles of beer on
the table, and a bowl of salted peanuts.
Vipul sees B looking at them, and gestures.
“Be my guest.” He’s big, with a kindly face marred by a scarred chin. B knows
him hardly at all. “So you dragged yourself away from your books? How come?”
B shrugs and takes a deep gulp of beer. His
stomach, empty since morning, cramps around the bitter, frothy, ice cold fluid.
He licks his lips. “It seemed a good idea at the time,” he says.
“But it doesn’t any longer?” Vipul grins. “We
all need a break sometimes, and you might as well learn that now as later.” He
takes some peanuts and pushes over the bowl. “Here.”
“Break, yes,” B says. He gulps more of the
beer. He’s feeling light-headed, the alcohol already rising in his blood. “You
know what?”
“What?” Haleel asks. He’s cradling his beer
protectively. Haleel isn’t famous for knowing how to share.
“Everything is crazy,” B pronounces. From
the corner of his eye he sees Atul come into the hut, and for a moment feels
like calling him over. But Atul sees him and walks out again. “Everything,” he
mumbles.
“Of course everything is crazy.” Vipul
yawns and rises. “I’ll get another beer.”
“Make it two.” B fishes in his wallet and gives
Vipul a hundred-rupee note. He has almost nothing left, but Sundeep is rolling
in money. He thinks of the money Sundeep is carrying, enough to buy all the
booze in the restaurant twice over, and giggles.
“What’s so funny?” Haleel demands. “If you
are having a funny joke, tell, man.”
“Nothing.” B tries to listen to the music.
It’s half familiar, a rock tune that was popular some months ago, but he can’t
name the singer and can’t make out the lyrics. Perhaps it’s a knock-off, a copy
by some South Indian film music director.
“So did you come here alone, man?” Haleel
asks. He looks resentfully at B’s fresh bottle of beer. “You going back
afterwards?”
B shrugs noncommittally. The beer is
buzzing in his head. “Don’t mind me,” he mutters, looking into the glass. The
froth seems to twist and form faces. Atul’s face, with its strip of moustache
and its wavy cap of hair. Sundeep’s, square-jawed and truculent. Rudal’s,
gap-toothed and thick-lipped, and then Pradeep’s, narrow and long, like a
jackal’s. But instead of his own face, the froth next shifts into a semblance
of the dead policeman’s countenance, mouth open and eyes staring. B shakes his
head and looks away, and when he looks back again it’s just a glass of beer.
Draining off the last of the beer, he
realises he’s alone at the table. Haleel and Vipul have gone, and when he looks
around he sees them at the bar, talking to a couple of girls. The bar is full,
but he feels alone, eyes everywhere looking at him. Surely they all know he’s
hiding. They must be.
Suddenly, he has to pee. Moving with some
care, he blunders away from the table and out of the hut. It’s sunset, the last
reddish rays lying slantwise across the thatched roofs.
From the toilet – thatched roof and bamboo
outside, white tiles and shiny fixtures inside – B walks around for a bit, and
towards the gate. People are coming in, but fewer than he’d have thought on a
weekend evening. He looks outside at the shops of the little market. The
lorries are gone.
All of a sudden, B has a bizarre image,
almost a vision. He sees himself, a middle sized figure standing in the gate,
the sunlight flashing off his spectacles. Someone is watching him, as in a
video, the camera zooming in closer and closer, picking up the smear of dirt on
the right knee of his jeans, the dust on his sneakers, the dried sweat tracks
on his face which he forgot to wipe away in the toilet. He sees through these
other eyes, feels them measuring him, noting everything.
They’ve been found, he thinks. The police are
just waiting, making sure, getting ready for the right moment. He’s got to get
away from here.
He’s got to tell the others, too, to warn
them. They have to know.
Hurrying, suddenly stone cold sober, he goes
back into the restaurant. It suddenly seems much smaller than he’d thought, the
huts a flimsy hiding place, the crowd thin, almost nonexistent. He goes into
the first hut, the one Pradeep had chosen, but none of the four is at the
tables. Quickly, he goes to the next hut, and the next. They’re nowhere.
Finally he checks the big hut again. Vipul
is just leaving, a giggling girl with a mass of black hair with her arm wrapped
round his. She glances at B out of the corner of her eye and grips Vipul’s arm
possessively.
“I thought you’d left,” Vipul says. He
smiles, more than half drunk. “Come back for another round?”
“No,” B replies. “Not now. Did you see Atul
or Rudal? How about Pradeep or Sundeep?”
Vipul belches gently. “Oops. No, why, did
they come with you? They probably left long ago. Do you want me to pass along a
message if I see them?”
“No,” B says despairingly. “It doesn’t
matter.” He walks into the hut to make sure anyway. The big hut is empty,
except for the barman, who’s wiping glasses. He looks at B expectantly. “Yes,
sir?”
B shakes his head and sits down at a table.
He can see it clearly in his mind, the four of them getting together, looking
over their shoulders to make sure he isn’t around, and making quick whispered
plans to get away with the money. They’re probably far away by now – or maybe,
more likely, they’ve simply gone back to the college, pretending nothing
happened. If anyone’s caught, it’s going to be him.
“But if I’m caught,” he tells them, in his
head, “I can tell the police all about you, that you did it.”
“Tell away,” they reply, in one voice,
sneering. “Who’s going to believe you anyway? It’s your word against ours. The
car can’t be traced back to us, nor can the gun, and as for the money –” They
look at each other and laugh, shaking in unison. “And meanwhile, you sat
getting drunk in public. Everyone saw you do that. It’s hardly usual behaviour
for you, right? People notice.”
How many years will I get? B wonders to
himself, his hands clenching. Twenty years? Forty? Most likely life without a
chance of release. And I’m just starting out! I have my whole life ahead of me!
What will my parents do? Suddenly he can’t breathe.
B stands up so abruptly his chair falls
over. He rushes out of the hut, towards the gate, determined to run somewhere,
anywhere. It’s full dark now, much darker than it should be, and as he runs on
to the street he realises why. The shops are all shut, the lights are out. And
surely it can’t even be seven in the evening yet?
B stands in the middle of the street, no
idea which way to run. He takes a couple of steps back towards the restaurant,
but the lights are going off there, too, the gate swinging shut. Everything
seems to be getting ready to hide.
Footsteps come towards him, scuffling. It’s
someone, running, scrambling footsteps almost falling over themselves in their
hurry. B moves aside quickly so the racing figure doesn’t collide with him. It’s
someone small and thin, dressed in cheap kurta and pyjamas.
“Wait,” B clutches at his arm. “Wait just a
moment.”
“Let me go!” The man’s eyes, huge in his
thin face, roll with fear. “Let me go, master.”
“What’s going on?” B asks.
“Police,” the man gasps. “The Crime Branch
is about to make a raid. Let me go!”
“But you haven’t done anything, have you?”
B asks. “So why are you running?”
“Do you think they care about that?” the
man says. His entire face twitches. “When they make a raid, anyone they find is
finished. They’ll find something to
hang on you.”
“Such as?” B asks, his mouth dry.
“Anything!” The man peers at B’s face. “Especially
college kids like you – they like nothing better than one of you, nice and
soft. It gives them a real kick.” With a quick wriggle he frees his arm from B’s
clutch and disappears into the darkness.
Moments later B hears noises coming.
B stands in the middle of the street,
listening to the approaching engines, watching their lights. They’re coming
from both sides, and he wonders briefly whether he should make a run for the
scrub forest. Maybe he can make it to the shelter of the forest before they can
see him.
But, with the certainty of despair, he
knows there’s no point to running, any longer, at all.
Copyright B Purkayastha 2015
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I've had dreams like this. Hard to shake off. Great story, tension building. Until the end.
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