Coming
down the stairs from the bank, Tauseef saw the dead man for the first time. He
was standing right at the bottom of the steps, blocking the way, and made no
attempt to step aside.
“Excuse me,” Tauseef said.
The dead man did not react. He was dressed
in a villager’s loose robe, and had a turban on his head which was unravelling
so one end straggled on his shoulder. The beard on his hollow cheeks was
smeared with dust. Only his eyes moved, slowly, following Tauseef.
“I said, excuse me,” Tauseef said, and
tried to squeeze past. He’d just managed it when he felt a hand tugging at his
coat, dead fingers digging into the sleeve. He turned.
“What do you want?” he demanded. “Let me go!”
The dead man’s mouth opened, the stiff
bluish tongue within struggling to form words. One of his cracked leather shoes
scraped on the pavement, as though his whole body was struggling together in
the effort to talk. It was no use, and after a moment he shook his head
dismally.
Tauseef looked at him and down at the hand
which was still clutching his sleeve. The fingers were gnarled and spotted with
flecks of dried blood, the nails blue with dirt. He tugged at his arm, and the
clutching hand finally fell away.
“Bloody hell,” he muttered to himself and
walked away down the pavement. The dead were becoming a real problem now. Once
upon a time they were hardly to be seen, but now they swarmed the city, doing
what they wanted, where they wanted. There were more of them than ever. And no
wonder, too, considering what was going on in the countryside.
Briefly, he raised his eyes to the yellow
hills in the west. Beyond those eroded humps of stone and dirt, the plateau
stretched, beaten by sun and drought and civil war. Even here in the city, food
had become hard enough to come by. He did not want to think about outside.
A low flying drone buzzed by overhead, the whirring
propeller glittering in the sun, and there was a flash. When he turned to look,
the dead man was stretched out at the bottom of the steps. The drone must have
been on one of the anti-dead patrols the city had started in an erratic attempt
to do something about the problem. He watched the small drone bank and turn
away between two buildings, and was about to walk on when he saw the dead man
stir. Apparently the drone had missed.
Then he saw the dead man try to rise, only
to fall back again on the concrete. A couple of people had stopped to look, but
they hurried on quickly again. A dead man was far too common a sight to waste
time over, and besides, the drone might be back. The drone operators didn’t
always care about who was in the vicinity when they blasted one of the dead.
Tauseef hesitated. For some reason, he felt
a sudden surge of sympathy towards the dead man, even though that was silly.
There was as much point feeling sympathy towards one of the dead as there was
for a piece of stone or a fallen leaf. And yet when the dead man raised an arm
towards him, he turned and walked back, and, unmindful of the dirt being rubbed
on his coat, helped the corpse to its feet. The drone had done damage. The dead
man’s robe was charred on the side, and there was the odour of burned flesh.
“Where do you want to go?” he asked the
dead man, as though there could be an answer. The dead man clutched at his coat
with both hands and stared into his face. One of his eyes was filmy, grey and
blind; the other, for all that he was dead, was bright and black. His mouth
opened again, as he tried to talk.
“Do you want to go somewhere?” Tauseef
said, feeling stupid. “Is that it?”
The dead man shook his head. Not much, just
enough for Tauseef to be able to make it out, but it was a head-shake,
nevertheless. His clutching hands would not let go of the coat.
“Well, you can’t stay here,” Tauseef said. “That
drone...” he pointed up to the air. “It’s going to be back, and next time it
won’t miss.”
The dead man’s eyes, the blind one and the
bright one, followed his finger. The hands did not relax their grip.
“All right then,” Tauseef sighed. “You’d
better come with me.”
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Tauseef’s
car was old, battered and dusty, and he used it as little as possible now that
both fuel and spare parts were becoming extremely hard to come by. On the other hand, just about every other car
in the city was now like that, so it never drew any particular attention, including
from the soldiers who manned the roadblocks on all the main streets. Only, he
had never tried to drive anywhere with a dead man in the seat beside him, and he
hoped nobody would give them a second glance as long as he stayed to the side
streets and alleys.
Getting the dead man into the car had been
no struggle. He’d got in readily enough when Tauseef had opened the door,
falling into the seat heavily and flopping back as though whatever power had
kept him going all this time had suddenly drained away. His hands rose, like
someone attempting to ward off a blow, and fell again to his sides. His dusty
beard shook.
“All right,” Tauseef said. “I’ll drive you
out of the town, and then I’ll drop you where the drones won’t find you unless
you’re stupid enough to come back into the city. But that’s all I’ll do for
you. Do you understand? That’s all.”
The dead man gave no sign of having heard.
Tauseef shook his head, wondering why he was doing this, and got behind the
steering wheel. The roads were thick with the dust the wind blew in constantly
from the plateau, turning the entire town yellowish-grey, and even after he’d
rolled his windows up he could feel the grit on his teeth.
The dead were everywhere. Never before, he
though, had he seen them in quite these numbers. Or maybe never before had he
noticed them particularly. After all, he hadn’t even before driven around the
city with one of them lolling in the seat beside him. But they were everywhere.
He watched one, a young woman, walk right
down the middle of the street oblivious to traffic, one broken leg twisting
agonisingly at every step. Another one sat on the edge of the pavement, rubbing
his hands together, his eyes fixed on the rubbing. Even as the car passed close
enough to brush his fingers, he didn’t raise his hands from the rubbing. And
then there were two children. They might have been brother and sister. It was
hard to tell. They were so covered in dust their eyes were clogged with it and
their hair, faces and cloaks all of a colour. Holding hands, they slowly walked
down the pavement, and people gave them a wide berth.
High in the hills over the roofs of the
city, something exploded, a tower of smoke rising and spreading in a mushroom
of dust and pulverised stone. There, the war continued, manufacturing more dead
for the city’s streets, as though the drought and famine weren’t enough.
Just yesterday, Tauseef had heard a rumour
that the dead were all the fault of the foreigners, who had put something in
the air that made them come to life. People said that and threw ugly glances at
the huge compound of the diplomatic quarter, where the few foreigners remaining
were holed up behind their high concrete walls with the watchtowers and the
razor wire on top. People said the drones were piloted from behind those walls,
and Tauseef thought that might even be true. But why anyone, least of all the
foreigners, would want to bring the
dead back was a question that nobody seemed interested in asking.
They weren’t really a danger. They didn’t attack anybody. They had not, as yet, caused a
pestilence. They straggled over the streets of the city, aimlessly wandering
from place to place, until they were either destroyed or disappeared again. None
seemed to stay around longer than a day or two. Sometimes one would cause a car
crash or a soldier would accidentally shoot a living person while trying to
destroy one of them, but that was all. But they were everywhere, and they did
nobody’s morale any good, especially as the drought grew ever fiercer, famine
stalked the land, and the war grew nearer by the day.
“Can you hear me?” Tauseef asked the dead
man. “Can you understand what I’m saying? I wish I could ask you what happened,
what you want – why you’re wandering the streets instead of lying in peace. Is
that even the same person in you as the one when you were alive? I...”
He broke off and slammed on the brakes with
a soft curse. They had turned a corner and come up against a roadblock. It had
not been there an hour before, and soldiers were still piling sandbags and
putting up barriers. For a moment he thought he might be able to reverse and
drive away, but one of them had already seen him and motioned him forward.
“Is that a dead man with you?” he asked,
peering through the window.
“Yes,”
Tauseef said. There was no point in denying it.
“Dead people walking need to be destroyed,”
the soldier said, drawing a pistol from his holster. “That’s the rule and...”
“Wait, please,” Tauseef interrupted. “He’s...”
He glanced quickly at the dead man. “He’s my father. He wandered away before we
could bury him.” He was talking faster and faster, and tried to force himself
to slow down. “I’m taking him back home to bury him. That’s all.”
“You’ll bury him while he’s still moving?” The
soldier was still in the act of raising his gun. His eyes glistened avidly with
the urge to use it. “I wouldn’t call that very kind, would you? So I’ll put a
couple of bullets through him, and then you can bury him with a clear conscience.
Nice of me, isn’t that so?”
“But...” Tauseef began.
“Get him out of the car so I can shoot him,”
the soldier said. He reconsidered. “No, you
get out of the car and I’ll shoot him right inside so you don’t have to pick
him up and put him back in. See? I’m a not a bad man.”
“Stop fooling around and come back here,”
one of the other soldiers, with the stripes of a non commissioned officer on
his sleeve, shouted. “The roadblock has to be up within the hour.”
The soldier looked back over his shoulder, back
at Tauseef, and spat. “Go on, then,” he said. “Go take him and knock him over
the head or something. Or just bury him like that. See if I care.” He stalked
off, muttering.
Tauseef stuck to the back streets after
that. There were very few people around, and no children. Those who could
afford it had long since left, or at least had sent their families away. Only
in the villages, where the people had almost nothing anyway, and nowhere at all
to go, did they still hang on, scratching in the dirt for some means to stay
alive.
As he drove, Tauseef glanced at the dead
man in the passenger seat, really looking
at him for the first time. He was younger than he’d first thought – probably in
his mid-forties, with a thin blade of a nose and a muscular physique. If he’d been
alive, and properly cleaned up, he’d probably have been quite striking. Tauseef
wondered who he’d been. Not that it mattered, of course. Once they were dead
they were...
There was a huge flash right in front of
the car, so bright that Tauseef was blinded, and a blast so loud he went
momentarily deaf. The shock wave came a moment later, slamming into the vehicle
and slewing it sideways, Tauseef stamping on clutch and brake instinctively as
he fought to keep control. It was too late. The car mounted the near side
pavement, smashed into a wall, and the engine quit.
Tauseef sat behind the wheel, stunned,
waiting for his hearing and vision to return. Steam rose from the crumpled nose
of the car, and he could smell petrol. Somehow it did not seem an immediate
concern that the car might catch fire, with him still in it. He could not will
himself to move.
Something touched his face, bony fingers
moving down his cheek. Slowly, he turned his head. The dead man had turned
towards him, his one sighted eye looking down at Tauseef’s seatbelt. His hands
made circles in the air.
“Yes,” Tauseef muttered. “The seatbelt,
yes.” He rarely used it, but had put it on before the roadblock, and it had
probably saved him from going through the windscreen. As for the dead
man...well, he was dead anyway.
He forced his hands to work, raised the
seatbelt loop. The near door had burst open from the crash. He almost fell out
of the car, staggering, and reached in to pull the dead man out. They stood
beside the wrecked vehicle, holding on to each other. Tauseef held on to the
dead man because he couldn’t trust his legs. The dead man held on to Tauseef
for reasons unknowable. There was a charred crater in the street where the
rocket had struck. Not a single person was visible anywhere, but Tauseef had
the sense of many watching eyes.
“Bad aim again,” he said, aloud. “Bad aim.”
A distant buzzing sounded in his ears. At
first he thought it was his head, still ringing from the crash. Then he
realised that it was outside, and getting closer. The drone was coming back.
“Come on,” he grunted to the dead man. “We’ve
got to get into hiding.” Opposite was a narrow alley with a rusted old
dumpster. He pulled the dead man behind it and pushed him down. A moment later
the car bloomed into a flower of erupting high explosive, burning fuel and
mangled white hot metal.
“Why?” Tauseef whispered, crouching beside
the dead man. “What on earth is going on?”
The dead man turned his head and tugged.
The lane they were in was very narrow, and the walls so high that there was
only a tiny strip of sky far above. He pulled Tauseef along the alley, his
strong hands gripping the living man’s coat. The drone came buzzing down the
street behind them again, making a low pass over what was left of the car.
“We’ve got to find shelter,” Tauseef said.
He took it for granted now that the dead man could understand what he was
saying. “We’ve got to hide until the drone goes away.”
They found what passed for shelter. It was
a half-constructed building which had been abandoned a long time ago, and was
now beginning to crack and crumble back into the ground. Rusted iron rods stuck
from the fissured concrete like accusing fingers pointing at the sky.
Or, Tauseef thought, they were pointing at
the drones. The reaction to his narrow escape had begun to set in, and he began
to shudder uncontrollably. The dead man, crouched beside him, held him tight. Tauseef
no longer noticed the smell of charred flesh.
“It must be you,” Tauseef told the dead
man. “There’s no reason for them to go after me. The drones must be after you.”
Maybe he was someone important. Maybe he was
even some rebel commander, though not one so important that the soldier at the
roadblock would have known who he was. But even then, he was dead, and there
was no reason for drones to go after someone who was already dead.
“Dead is dead,” Tauseef said. “Isn’t it?”
The dead man glanced at him from his one
seeing eye and looked away. They watched the distant speck of the drone fly
back and forth over the roofs, searching.
“Or perhaps dead isn’t so dead,” Tauseef
said. “How the hell would I know? You know, but do I?”
The dead man said nothing.
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They
moved on when the first stars were beginning to puncture the dark velvet veil
of the twilight. The drone had finally departed about half an hour ago, but
they’d waited to see if another took its place. The dead man led now, walking
almost purposefully, his hand on Tauseef’s sleeve. At first Tauseef had been
inclined to resist. Then he realised that for the moment he didn’t know where
to go. They were on the opposite side of town from his home, if the poky little
flat he inhabited deserved that name.
They went back down the alley, and paused.
Soldiers were there now, prodding around the wrecked car lackadaisically. None
of them looked around as Tauseef and the dead man edged past through the
shadows.
“Obviously,” Tauseef murmured to the dead
man, “the soldiers haven’t been told what the drone people are doing. Why? Why
did they attack us anyway? Who are you?”
The dead man found another alley. Now he
was moving quite quickly, as though through familiar territory. His fingers dug
into Tauseef’s arm. They were near the outskirts of the town, and the cry of a
desert jackal sounded faintly in the distance.
“Where are we going?” Tauseef asked the
dead man.
As he expected, there was no reply.
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They came
to the village as the constellations had risen to the zenith and begun
descending again to the horizon.
Tauseef was so tired that his legs were
hardly moving, but the dead man seemed to gain strength with every step he
took. Now it was he who looked like the living man, purposeful, hurrying
towards his goal. Tauseef simply hung on because he had no other choice.
The village was small and unlit, and at
first he thought it deserted. Then he saw the faint glimmer of a candle or oil
lamp from one of the huts His companion, dead hand still clutching his sleeve,
drew him towards it.
The village was a shattered ruin. As they
got closer to the faint, glimmering light, Tauseef realised that the huts were
mostly roofless, the walls broken into fragments, and the ground cratered and
burned to the consistency of brick. His feet kicked aside small objects that
rattled and bounced, and he was glad he did not know what they were.
Someone
was watching them from the doorway of the hut with the light, which was one of
the few he could see that still had its walls and roof. She stepped aside as
they came, lurching slightly in a motion that was oddly familiar. Then he
realised that he’d seen her before, earlier in the day, staggering down the
street. Two children sat on a mat on the floor just inside the door. Someone
had cleaned their eyes of the clogged dust, and wiped down their clothes. They
looked up at Tauseef solemnly.
There were more eyes inside the hut. The
floor was covered with thin mats, and the light – it was a thick candle, stuck
in the mouth of a bottle set in the exact centre of the floor – reflected
faintly on them. They were all dead, of course. Tauseef even recognised one or
two more that he’d seen around town in the last few days. They all stared at
him silently.
“What is this place?” Tauseef asked, knowing
there would be no answer. “Why have you brought me here?”
But there was an answer. “Probably because you’ve
nowhere else to go.”
“Who said that?” Tauseef asked, looking
around, his heart thudding.
“I did.” Tauseef had not noticed the woman
in the far corner. Wrapped in a dark cloak, she’d been sitting where the
shadows were thickest. Now she got up and stepped forward on bare feet, careful
not to trample the dead sitting all around. “You rescued him from the soldiers
and the drones, I take it?”
“Who are you?” Tauseef asked. The woman’s
face was very pale and very beautiful under the dark cowl of her cloak, but she
was also clearly dead. Her lips curved in an imitation of a smile.
“Just one of us,” she said. “Some of us
keep the facility of speech. It’s not altogether a blessing as you might think,
when there’s nobody to talk to.”
“And you’re all together here –” Tauseef
waved a hand around at the hut. “Why?”
“Why?” the woman shrugged. “Call it refuge.
This village has been killed. Once it was alive, and then the drought came, and
after that the bombers and rockets, and now it’s...well, you’ve seen for
yourself. A dead city, for the dead. Nobody bothers us here.”
“What about him?” Tauseef pointed at his dead man, who had finally let go of
his arm. “Who is he? Why were they so eager to destroy him?”
“Were they?” The woman cocked her head. “Tell
me about it.”
Tauseef told her what had happened from the
moment he’d seen the dead man on the way out of the bank until they’d left the
city behind. “And that’s how we came here.”
The woman nodded. “I can’t tell you why
they wanted to destroy him in particular. Doubtless he meant something to them –
or they thought he did. There are those among the living who are getting
increasingly disturbed at the dead. We now outnumber them by far, and each day
we grow in number while they shrink. But it doesn’t matter either way what he
was. It matters what he is now.”
“And what is he now?”
The woman looked at him. “Haven’t you
guessed yet what we are here for, apart from sanctuary?”
Someone ran into the room through the door,
a woman in a torn grey cloak. She rushed in like the wind and threw herself into
Tauseef’s dead man’s arms. They hugged each other so tightly it seemed they
would merge into each other.
The woman in black smiled slightly at
Tauseef. “The dead have their ties too, you know. When families are torn apart
and mutilated...sometimes they want to come back together, if only in death. Why
not?”
Tauseef looked away from the couple, the
woman in grey and his dead man, who
were holding each other so tightly that it seemed they would never let go.
“Someday,” the woman in black said softly,
reach up to touch Tauseef’s arm, “the dead will be all that remain in the
world. The living will have destroyed everything that there is to destroy, and
then themselves in their turn. And then, someone will have to be there to carry
on. Someone who has already been through the worst, and knows how ridiculous the
greed and ambition of the living are.”
“And it will start from here?”
“Maybe,” she said. “Maybe it will start somewhere
else. But it will happen, and it has to happen. That is why we are here. That
is why we exist.”
“And I?” he asked plaintively. “Why am I here?”
The woman just looked at him.
And then, at last, Tauseef wondered whether
the drone had missed after all.
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