Every day
the end of the world grew a little closer. Some mornings, standing at the upper
window shaking out the blankets, Jill could see it in the distance, a sharp
line where the world ended. Once, they’d had to drive out there in the old lorry,
when Jack had wanted a picnic or Polly to conduct one of her experiments. But
now it wasn’t even a particularly long walk.
Polly said it would probably reach the
house before another year was through, but Jack disagreed. Jill thought it was
probably because Jack didn’t want to admit it, not because he really thought
that Polly was wrong. In any case she
didn’t need Polly’s prognostications to see for herself that the house had only
months left – and she wasn’t even a scientist.
Their names weren’t really Jack, Jill and
Polly, of course. They didn’t know any longer what their names really were. It
had been so long since they’d used them that they’d forgotten. They’d all
fallen into such routines that they almost had no other identity apart from
them. Jack minded the store and tinkered with the car and generator. Jill
cooked, cleaned, and pottered around in the “garden”, scratching what growth
she could from the dun-brown dirt. And Polly sat with her machinery and her
test tubes and her furnaces and retorts in the laboratory, doing whatever she
did all day.
One day they’d chosen the names from
nursery rhymes, because they seemed to fit fairly well. But by now even they
couldn’t quite remember how they thought the names had fit.
The store hadn’t been doing so well any
longer, not since the end of the world had started getting close enough to see.
Once upon a time they’d had customers crowding in, desert sprites and
cuchuchillas, spiny molochmen and even the odd dune troll from out in the
wastes. But now days would go by without a single visitor, and if a sandwalker
or a mirage mangler stopped in, he or she would keep glancing nervously over
his or her shoulder, as though the world was being bitten away in huge chunks
and any minute the wall and shelves would vanish into the void.
Jill remembered well the first time she’d
gone out to the end of the world and looked out into the void. It had been a
literal void. The flat eroded desert ran up to the edge of the world and then
just...stopped. There was nothing beyond.
“The sky ends there too,” Jack had pointed
out. And, indeed, the metallic, burnt-out blue haze of the desert sky had
just...stopped. At the end of the world there was nothing.
“What do you suppose is beyond the edge?”
Jill had asked. “Do you think we might take a look?”
Polly had arched an eyebrow at her. “Before
you do,” she’d said, “let’s check.” She’d picked up a pebble and tossed it
across the boundary. It had reached the edge, hung in mid air for a few seconds
as though frozen, and vanished.
“The earth at the edge is vanishing also,”
Polly had said, kneeling and peering at the boundary. She’d whipped out some
kind of complicated apparatus with scoped and lenses and moved it around the
ground, reading off scopes. “We’ll have to keep measuring to see if it’s speeding
up or disappearing at a constant rate.”
“Or if it’ll slow down and stop,” Jack
said, but even then he’d had no certainty in his voice.
That had been then, and after that the
world had kept disappearing. Sometimes it went a little faster, sometimes a
little slower, but it kept vanishing into the void, day after day. Sometimes
Jill lay awake at night in her narrow bed, imagining that it would come up and
eat them all while they were sleeping.
One morning, she found a rock vampire
crouching outside the door. The vampire blinked at her with its great pale
eyes. When she half-heartedly raised her broomstick to threaten it, it raised
itself on its claws and waddled away a few paces.
“What do you want?” she asked. “This is a
human house. No rock vampires allowed here, unless it’s as a customer – and
I’ve never known your kind to buy anything.”
The vampire cranked open its misshapen maw.
“Sssssssshelter,” it hissed. “All I want isssss ssssssshelter for the day. I’ll
go in the night.”
That was the first one. Each day after that
she found more creatures, some of them outside, and a few of the smaller ones
inside. None of them ever did any harm. Even the Thorn Tiger she found one dawn
lying across the door did no more than raise an eyelid at her when she stepped
over it. They stayed around for a day or two, gratefully ate and drank anything
she could give them, and then went on their way.
“Do you think it’ll ever stop?” Jill asked
Polly, visiting the lab so Jack wouldn’t overhear and scoff. “Or will it keep
going on and on till there’s nothing left?”
Polly looked up from her work. “Yes, isn’t
that wonderful?” she’d said. “The greatest scientific mystery of the age!” But
nobody ever came from the cities to have a look, not even from the big
universities that Polly said existed. Jill wasn’t quite certain that even the
cities existed, let alone the universities. As far as she knew, they might be
the only people in the world.
“What will we do when the end of the world
reaches the house?” Jill worried every day, but she worried to herself. Jack
refused to admit it would ever happen, and Polly thought it was the most
fascinating thing. And each day, Jill, despite her worries, also carried on as
usual, cooking meals by habit, cleaning the dust from the shelves, and
scratching at the ground to plant crops that would be eaten by the end of the
world long before they could sprout. It was as though she was in a cage she
couldn’t break out of, and only she could even see the bars.
Then one night Jill was lying in bed when
it happened. The end of the world was so close now that no longer did any
fugitive creatures seek shelter for the day or the night – they’d fled already.
The last customer they’d seen was a fortnight earlier, a gangling stilt-stalker
who’d eyed them strangely and asked why they hadn’t left yet. And though by now
the end of the world was almost at the end of the garden, Jack still acted as
though it would stop of its own accord, and Polly still concentrated on
studying it with her instruments, as though it wasn’t anything to worry about.
That night, Jill was lying in her narrow
bed, trying to sleep, when she saw a light glowing and flickering through the
window. It was a faint, greenish-blue light, so faint that at first she thought
she was imagining it. Then she got out of bed and went to the window.
It loomed over the end of the world, a
flickering haze that twitched and rippled. She stood for hours looking at it,
but it never changed. When the night finally began to end, it faded, too, and
by then it was too late to go to bed.
“Yes,” Polly said over breakfast. “I know
what it is. That will be the light from the photons annihilating themselves as
they reach the end of the world.” She went into a ten-minute dissertation on
the physics of what was happening. “Interesting, isn’t it?”
Jill didn’t quite understand Polly’s long
words, but interesting wasn’t the
word she’d have chosen. And that night the flickering glow was back as soon as
darkness fell. She could almost see it right through her closed eyelids, and
repeating to herself that she was just imagining it didn’t help.
“We can’t stay here,” she said to Jack and
Polly the next morning. “Surely even you two understand that?”
Jack looked as though he would have liked
to argue, but Jill pointed out through the window. “Look there,” she said. “You
can’t even see the sky any longer, and the stone spike beyond the garden is
gone, too. By this time next month it’ll take the house.”
“Yes,” Polly agreed reluctantly. “I suppose
it’s time to go.”
So they loaded up the old lorry with
everything they could load into it, including all of Polly’s equipment, which
she refused to leave behind, and the remaining stock of the shop, since, as
Jack said, they would have to start over
somewhere else, wouldn’t they? So in the end it was, of course, Jill who had to
leave almost everything of her own behind. Not that she would miss most of it,
she thought, as the house, and the end of the world beyond it, finally began to
recede into the distance. She’d hardly been noticing the existence of most of
it anyway. It had receded into the general background, like the desert before
the world began to end.
Jill sat in the cab of the lorry between
Jack, who was driving, and Polly, and stared out at the desert. It had been so
long since she’d come this way that she’d forgotten the stubby little hills
they passed, the names of the villages of the molochmen, or the burrows of the desert
sprites. But it didn’t matter anyway. The molochmen’s villages lay empty, the desert
sprites’ burrows were beginning to fall in one themselves, and, as for the
stubby little hills, they, too, would be gone soon enough.
They drove for hours, and more hours after
that, until the end of the world had fallen so far behind it was as though they’d
imagined it all. But the villages, the burrows, and even a town of the
sandwalkers they passed through, with its lopsided towers and houses built out
of piled stone, were empty, and they never saw a living thing except vegetation
not yet so withered as to drift away on the wind.
“There’s nobody left,” Jill said. “Nothing
living at all. I’ll bet if Polly checked the soil with her microscopes, she’d
find that there aren’t even any bugs or bacteria any longer.”
Neither Polly nor Jack said anything to
that.
When Jack grew tired, Polly drove, and
after that Jill took the wheel, while the other two napped. By that time the
night had come, and the headlights formed a dim lane of yellow down which she
drove into the desert. Her eyes became weary of looking out into the headlight
glow, and after a while she turned off the lights, just for a minute. After
all, it wasn’t as though there was anyone else using the road, and it wasn’t as
though it was anything but straight as a line laid out across the eroded rock
of the desert floor.
And then she eased the truck to a stop and
switched off the engine.
Beside her, Polly stirred sleepily. “Why
have you stopped?”
“Look,” Jill said quietly, pointing through
the windscreen.
They looked. Out in the distance, where the
sky should meet the horizon, was a faint, flickering curtain of blue and green.
“It’s on both sides, too,” Jill said quietly.
“It’s on all sides. The world is ending from all directions at once.”
Neither of the others said anything.
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Jack,
Jill and Polly stood by the old lorry and watched the end of the world close in
from all sides.
Long ago, they’d decided to stop running.
There was nowhere to run to. And, increasingly, as the world shrank, as the
flickering glow ruled the night as the void walled off the day, they crowded to
each other, not moving or speaking, just watching as the world closed in.
Standing, leaning against Polly’s shoulder,
with Jack on her other side, not really sleeping and not really awake, Jill
dreamed. In the dream they were on an island, in the middle of a silent sea.
But they weren’t alone. A gigantic figure in a robe of flickering green and
blue waded in the sea round and round the island, chopping away at it with an
axe the colour of the desert. Little by little the island shrank, until the sea
lapped at their toes, until they pressed as close to each other as they could
in order not to fall in...and still the figure in the robe went on cutting.
“What should we do?” Polly said, and her
words seemed to come inside Jill’s head, not in her ears.
“We must stay together,” Jill said. “Whatever
happens, we must stay together.”
“Stay together,” she mumbled aloud, opening
her eyes. For a moment she didn’t understand what she was seeing, for there was
literally nothing before her eyes. Then she looked down at herself, and, very,
very far below, she saw her feet, and beside them, a tiny box on wheels. It was
the lorry.
Slowly, very slowly, she turned. All around
there was nothing but the void, and, below her, the tiny, vanishing spot on
which the lorry, now the size of an ant, still dwindled.
“Polly?” she asked. “Jack?” And then she
added a third name. “Jill?”
There was no reply. Polly was gone, and so
was Jack, and Jill was gone, too. There was only she, whoever she was. And
there was the last scrap of world.
Slowly, slowly, she bent, took up the last
dot of world in her hands, and held it up to her eyes. And she breathed on it,
breathed on it with Polly’s knowledge, and Jack’s optimism, and, at last, with
whatever it was that Jill had. She
breathed on it, held it to her breast, and, when it was ready, her hands began
to knead and shape.
Half-dreaming, unsure of who she was, or if
she had ever been, she began moulding a new world.
Copyright B Purkayastha 2016
One of the best you have ever written. Astounding. This is a classic.
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